Lil time for sweetness...( " , )

24th November 2004

i enjoyed yesterday...
a light gathering with a light drink...
just the two of us...
consist of u n me....

as i search for u're eyes....i kept wondering
n cannot understand how...
those feelings for u...
still remain..in me...
intact n so alive....

R E A L ?..let time tell...
let time decide....
as time stood aside...
for a lil sweetness for curry....

as i search for u're heart...
comes a tinggling felling right thru my heart..
like a gold dust shimmering in the air ...
the type u want it to last more than tonite....last nite..yesterday
the type u want forever....

so as i wait....
to have another chance...
deep in my heart i linger n ponder...
for another light nite...close with my light slumber...
to have another taste..
for that lil time of sweetness
for me...
for curry....

9.00 am

that i would b good...even if i lose sanity

19 November 2004

LongLive AlanisMorisette

all myteries are over...
all wonders n what ifs are finally over...
my mysteryMan...

the idea of a mom liking me first before i even got to know the son
made me horny n hyper day by day....
no im not horny over the mom (what u think i lost it all already?!!!)
just to the excitement that this could b it....
dat finally im gonna....
yep...SETTLE DOWN
(i must b insane....thinkin this way lateLy)
imagine this...
from the second i found out a mom finds me *D E C E N T* enuff for his son..
i had crazy thoughts on my mind ...
yeay...i'm finally accepted by society..(kihkihkih), that im normal....

n so i met him
my mystery man...
n...
(drumRoll)...
yep..im insane...

i shouldve just stop at the idea of the decendy thingi.....n shouldnt have gone further....
i mean what was i thinkin....
havin a relationship wit a mummysBoi...
uuuurgh!....
i gotta kick myself in the ass like a thousand times to even consider it...
(still kickin....only at numb 18...( " , )

so maybe i was a bit of a desparate mode lateLy...
me n my fantasies...
n how i long to b wit someOne(shit i'm so desperate)
but i couldve invested into something more lessDesperate ( i think)...

like Myone nites, or my internetLover, n all other weirdos that as long as they get me horny i'm pretty much ok (heheheheeh...jokin)

but
whatever it is...
i know

that i will b good
whether with or withOut u._(Alanis Morrisette rawks...for-Eva!..)
(awww....my head.....)

Cheeers!

11.40am